May 21st, 2003

summer and lack of clothes=prep to the max eeek.

I am soooo bored.
I just want to go home and watch the Goonies...and the other video I rented.
I feel terrible and hideous.
No more whining.
Who else is (REALLY) going to buy a ticket for Buzzcocks? Let's get together and ride up because I seem to be the only person who has purchased a ticket and I know you kids love that terrible crazy music...or at least the tight pants that will be hanging about. I love the Fillmore. It is probably one of my favorite places to see music. I think the theater in Oak-town is beautiful but you have to sit down. I like being able to dance about.

I feel so lonely. I feel like I have already left for Argentina. My friends ignore me. I am being replaced. I knew that would happen and I was ok with it but, I really did not think that my best friends would abandon me already. Now, I need them more than ever. I think that because I am leaving they should try to spend more time with me not less. I really miss Lola. I know that Zoe is busy with her beau, dad, school, etc. and I get to see her in class but, it is different with Lola. I never really get to see her. It seems like when I do she totally ignores me. Like today, I saw her and she did not ever say hi. She seems to flock to her younger friends now as if she is either ashamed of me or because she thinks I will judge her? I really have no idea. I am just so sad. It hurts more than anything right now. Walking alone is fine, but the idea of having no one, even when they are there, is terrible. I wish I could go back in time when we were one. I miss my hip. Without her I break down and melt away...even though Zoe holds my body is breaking around it. Three cheers for emo figurative language. Ick. I need to go now before I start putting periods between all my words.

I think Sebastian likes B.

and nothing.

exit music (for a film)---xoromeo

wake, from your sleep
the drying of your tears
today we escape
we escape
pack, and get dressed
before your father hears us
before all hell breaks loose
breathe, keep breathing
don't lose your nerve
breathe, keep breathing
i can't do this alone
sing us a song, a song to keep us warm
there's such a chill, such a chill
you can laugh
a spineless laugh
we hope your rules and wisdom choke you
now we are one
in everlasting peace
we hope that you choke, that you choke
we hope that you choke, that you choke
we hope that you choke, that you choke
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