February 5th, 2003

Adult books, I don't understand. Jack and Susanne.

I lost a friend last night.
He passed a while ago but I did not know.
How could I not connect the dots?
Was I in denial?
Why didn't anyone talk about it?
Why wasn't anyone sad?
It scares me that someone I would always see, I will never see again.
I am afraid.
Who will be next?
Me.
You.
Jane?
I hate facing mortality like this.
I miss that couple.
The way her little self fit right under his arm.
The way they made me look forward.
I missed saying good bye to the kids I never knew.
Rest in Peace.



I will be in Rosa Sat-Mon. I am tired of being alone.