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19th July 2002

12:02am: I hate you all
Where was everyone?



Will everyone be at the Shop tomorrow? Did someone die?






I was lonely, and I missed you. I am alone now and in pain...my tongue hurts.









Where was everyone?
10:28pm: music runs it all, right off the cliff
I made another tape tonight.


First one I made, that one was for Bread-wanting boy.

Second one I made, that one was for Jessica's birthday.

Third one I made, that one was for Mollie and her little Betty.





This one, this one was for me. I mean in truth they were all for me. I make them with the other people in mind but I am the ruler of the feel of it, so it is me...my feelings.


This one is for love. Not so much love as lust. It is a mix of lovely songs with beat. A nice kiss beat, sort of a catharsis tape I suppose. A tape for amorousness. But, it is not for being alone. It is for company. So when I find that company, the tape is then for them. Because this tape is a couple's tape. And not a love love in a boat tape...a wild kiss in a bed tape. It is a "Monster of Love" tape. That is what it is truly called...but it is hidden by the name "Kaila's "special" tape" oh ha ha hahahaha. I need to go to sleep now. I look hideous and I want to look slightly attractive for tomorrow, which I am going to alone. Okay? Fine then. I like it that way.







Did you know that I fall for people once I can not have them? Jealousy = lust for me.
Current Mood: sleepy
10:44pm: I can hear a whistle
Turn down the lights, turn down the bed
Turn down these voices inside my head
Lay down with me, tell me no lies
Just hold me close, don't patronize - don't patronize me

CHORUS:
Cause I can't make you love me if you don't
You can't make your heart feel something it won't
Here in the dark, in these lonely hours
I will lay down my heart and I'll feel the power
But you won't, no you won't
Cause I can't make you love me, if you don't

I'll close my eyes, then I won't see
The love you don't feel when you're holding me
Morning will come and I'll do what's right
Just give me till then to give up this fight
And I will give up this fight

CHORUS:
Cause I can't make you love me if you don't
You can't make your heart feel something it won't
Here in the dark, in these lonely hours
I will lay down my heart and I'll feel the power
But you won't, no you won't
Cause I can't make you love me, if you don't
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