this is the series I made with the only man I have ever loved in mind:

the first of the series is called "granddaughter", but was lost and re-made as "i heard your granddaughter was alive":

cocteau twins- persephone
air- playground love
the pixies- hey!
le tigre- writing on walls
aphex twin- window licker
the yyys- maps
the rolling stones- emotional rescue
the cure- lovecats
kazumi nikaidoh- next week
young marble giants- eating noddemix
marine girls- second sight
the hollies- the air that I breathe
cat power- speak for me

heavy vegetable- e/or
his name is alive- the bees
architecture in helsinki- scissor paper rock
the ladybug transistor- oriental boulevard/six times
the shangrilas- give him a great big kiss
the walkmen- wake up
the velvet underground- I found a reason
clinic- distortions
elliott smith- pitseleh
joy division- disorder
kate bush- army dreamer
mum- we have a map of the piano
grandaddy- hewlett's daughter

the second of the series was called "first year italian" and was stolen by the boy:

leonard cohen- suzanne
devendra banhart- the body breaks
modest mouse- tundra/desert
my morning jacket- come closer
cocorosie- by your side
do make say think- soul & onward
heart- magic man
vincent gallo- when
os mutantes- fuga #2
mirah- words cannot describe
the cardigans- lovefool

gang of four- damaged goods
the cure- charlotte sometimes
explosions in the sky- glittering blackness
elliott smith- ballad of a big nothing
mirah- make it hot
iron & wine- lion's mane
radiohead- talk show host
architecture in helsinki- where you've been hiding
the velvet underground- candy says
mazzy star- fade into you
new buffalo- 16 beats
cat power- say

the third of the series was made here in Eugene and is called "you make my lips blush":

bob dylan- boots of spanish leather
little wings- sing wide
magnetic fields- all my little words
mirah- person person
beach boys- god only knows
john lennon- mother
menomena- cough coughing
broken social scene- anthems for a 17 yr. old girl
rilo kiley- does he love you?
the go! team- huddle formation
duran duran- save a prayer
jon brion- phone call
mirah- gone sugaring

little wings- boom!
lou reed- perfect day
beck- everybody's gotta learn sometime
felix da housecat- ready 2 wear
postal service- natural anthem
architecture in helsinki- one heavy february
interpol- narc
the microphones- I am bored
brian reitzell & roger manning jr.- on the subway
todd rundgren- hello it's me
cat power- no sense
fleetwood mac- dreams

the fourth and last of the series is called "because" and some of the tracks I still don't know who they are and wont until Landon tells me:

unknown track
kings of convenience- i'd rather dance with you
unknown track
unknown track
kazumi nikaidoh- pulsation
LCD soundsystem- tribulations
manhead feat. christian kreuz- BSWD
mirah- sun
magnetic fields- i don't want to get over you
the arcade fire- haiti
grandaddy- miner at the dial-a-view
mirah- we're both so sorry

neil young- one of these days
the arcade fire- neighborhood #3 (power out)
metric- dead disco
mum- i can't feel my hand anymore, it's alright, sleep tight
devo- gut feeling
mathieu boogaerts- ondule
little wings- look at what the light did now
jane birkin- elaeudania téïtéïa
vashti bunyan- rose hip november
devendra banhart- we all know
cat power- you may know him
cocorosie- terrible angels

(no subject)

I know you didn't mean it and you're sorry that I left
I'll go right on pretending I’ve got nothing to regret
Except all of the times we wasted giving only second best
You always seemed to lose the spark when I was only half undressed
I drove across a sea of ice to find my own command
The distance paid a lonesome price to see its motherland
Now if you would unbuckle sir, receive your reprimand
And hey I’m sorry 'bout so much baby but I know you'll understand
I'm sorry 'bout so much baby but I know you'll understand

How can I ever apologize? I meant you no such harm
I never knew I could possess that fatal kind of charm
I just wanted to be good to you but I found I was disarmed
By a lifetime of disillusionment and the distraction of the stars
I abdicated now I’m just a prince without a land
My subjects all adore me but for this I have been banned
Now could I trade my guilt for a good flogging by your hand?
And hey I’m sorry 'bout so much baby but I know you'll understand
I'm sorry 'bout so much baby but I know you'll understand

I can't understand why you refuse my one request
Just to press against my weaponry and then lay bare your chest
Challenges like these can be won or lost or laid to rest
Now we both agree to separate from the lonely castle steps
The kingdom is destabilized, the watchtower unmanned
The bedroom lies abandoned and the future is unplanned
But we've got the past to remind us of what's chivalrous and grand
And hey I’m sorry 'bout so much baby but I know you'll understand
I'm sorry 'bout so much baby but I know you'll understand

(no subject)

i wake up and i'm fine
with my dreaming still on my mind
but it don't take long you see
for the demons to come and visit me
and i've got my problems
sometimes love don't solve them
but i end each day
in a song

it's a hard life
for a man with no wife
baby it's a hard life
god makes you live
but without it
baby don't doubt it
you don't even have
your tears to give

i know i'm a hard man
to live with sometimes
maybe it ain't in me to make you a happy wife of mine
and maybe you'll kill me
honey i don't blame you
if i was in your place
maybe that's what i would do

but i ain't breathing
let me breathe
let me go
let me leave
i don't know but i like blues